My first 365 Days as an IT Professional

19-Jan-2004.

The day brought immense ecstacy, emotion and a sense of fulfilling achievement and an occasion that re-inforced my beliefs in myself that good things do happen in life. After months of hope, preparation and struggle here I was in Hyderabad joining Satyam Computer Services. Its been a great journey so far. 1 year has just gone in a flash and I see myself in the same vein as I was 1 yr back to this day, albeit with little strong changes...grown more professional, have a belief that "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE",prepared for anything...come what may, a smile is all what it takes to start a gr8 adventure... a journey filled with hope,optimism and a dream that begins many more such journeys... still remember those days when I used to dream that one day I will be a Software Engineer earning loads & loads of money, visit various countries, meet new people, live an enchanting life...the past 365 days have been sort of dreamy...learnt many things abt myself that I didn't knew even existed...the energy & zeal to deal with a challenging task, the meticulous planning(this was my known forte..though it became more better!!!) , my public speaking skills...WOW...i never knew I was such a good speaker...way to go buddy!!!... Staying away from home again this time much farther brought with it its own set of responsibilities and freedom... NO BOOZE... NO FAG ... NO GURLZ... Well can't say have done well in the first category... ocassionaly I do have my highs in parties with my friends out here...regarding FAG... never touched it..will never touch it again.

Well GURLZ... sometimes loneliness sets in and makes me feel... Hey C'mon Mr.Single wht the f*** r u upto..being Mr.Good?...move ur as* and start doing something abt it!!! My thoughts float towards P**** back home. Currently I have a huge crush on her. Am on Cloud 9 these days... well me and my queer thoughts ....(huh!!!) ..... But I am still open to single gurlz out there... ;-) Hey I was talking abt my professional career right!!! So here I am typing in this blog of mine abt the year that went by and the year thats going to be mine. Yes I say this b'coz I have lined up some gr8 surprises for myself and others of what I am going to achieve in the next 365 days... New Challenges, New Vision, New Hope, New Victories here I come...Come 19-Jan-2006... U guys will know and yes I will again re-inforce my beliefs in myself...Here is to a gr8 19-Jan-2005 to 18-Jan-2006...CHEERS!!!

BTW : I have completed half of 'DA VINCI CODE' ... after a long time I finally completed reading all the articlesin a Tinkle (big deal huh!!!) ... I missed out on an Astronomy programme of 3-days here at the planetarium(a rare occurence!!!) Will keep my eyes & ears open for the next opportunity... :-)

Fast approaching a D-Day!!!

19-Jan-2004 ... the date rings something of real prominence right!!! 1 year back it was my first day at the office as a Software Professional though as an amateur :-) ... it was a day I was preparing for from the past 1 month... the goals, the obstacles, the refinement, the challenges, the vision... I had left B'lore and landed in the big sprawling campus of STC(Satyam Technology Center) on the outskirts of Hyderabad. A little bit of nervousness interspersed with my confidence... It was Normal... After all I was selected in Satyam... it was a day of reckoning for me...I knew the days ahead were going to be tough, full of activity, new friends-place-life... I was prepared ... but yes I knew I will be missing some real special ppl in my life who had mattered to me most all this while...I learnt one thing 'THE ONLY CONSTANCY IS CHANGE'... the training days were excellent ..had loads of fun...the early morning trips to STC ... the constant drowsiness... the thought of cameras focusing on ur every action...it was hell lot of fun... the friends I made then... :-) ...

I wake up from my thoughts and find myself typing this blog entry in BBSR office of Satyam... Now I am farther away from home, missing my friends, family like crazy... I want to meet them and feel the comfort of their warmth... moreover add to that my single status right now :-( ... but yes there is that inherent feeling that something special is brewing in my life right now ... I am not able to make out exactly wht its all abt... but i know its something special and queerly pleasant... as always as has been my attitude - whatever it is I am going to approach it with an open mind and give my best to it... yes there are some goals which I am going to chart down very soon and go all out after those GOALS... its not just my existence that counts...wht counts is wht I do with my existence that counts..right !!! ...

Now I am just awaiting for 19-Jan-2005 which will be a checkpoint for me in life and time for me to benchmark myself against the best and prepare my strategies for life... Just wait and Watch !!!

By the Way I have started Dan Brown's 'Da Vinci Code' ... THE PLOT ... A lovely thriller expecting to complete it this month and then start either Dan's 'Angels & Demons' or Edward De Bono's 'Lateral Thinking'... Its been a gr8 start to 2005... LOL

A CHARMED EXISTENCE

I sit here in my office...listening to 'Kahin Door Jab Din Dhal Jaaye' ... its 12:15 am ... not even a single soul in the office..am all myself...today was the first day of 2005...lots of plans to make. a determined list of resolutions to be made... dreams to be lived ... hidden emotions start coming forth...I close my eyes for a minute and experience the solitary existence I have right now...a forced smile escape my lips...Am i in the right direction...am i doing the right thing...am i being myself... lots of questions hit me one by one...I just accept them and become more strong and more determined to live my life my way...the way I have dreamt and yes to be the guy I have always wanted to be...its a never ending experience...wish I could share this with somebody...but as the saying goes...'A THING OF BEAUTY IS A JOY FOREVER' ... LIFE never ceases to amaze me... Its a celebration of existence...Its been a charmed existence so far!!!

BTW here is a snap of mine from a 'not so long ago time'

Dec-31-2004 6:57 pm

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A 'NEW' year is going to dawn in a couple of hours from now...
I sit at my workstation doing nothing, just have a gradual slow glance across the office-space and see people...people who are planning to do something tonight, ppl who have no clues as to what they will be doing tonight (/LIFE ) ... some guys going out tonight with their GFs ... There is a sea of activity going around ppl's mind right now...

As for me I dont know what I will be doing tonight (/LIFE ... Naaah...I have my goals set in life!!!)...

Yes for first time I am away from home for a new year, but the feeling hasn't sunk in yet, it is a plethora of feelings right now...all mixed up...cant explain whether its elation or depression ... So this is my state right now on the eve of new year...

BUT i am not going to make these last moments of 2004 go just like that...
SOMETHING HAS TO BE DONE ABT THIS RIGHT...
Lets concoct a blue-print for a wild-bachelor party...u know...where u have this heady mix of excitement all night thru' ...

C'MON FELLAS ... LETZ ROCK THE LAST DAY OF 2004 AND BEAT THE HELL OUT OF THESE REMAINING 5 HOURS ;-) ... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005...

The following lines goes out to all those special ppl who have made a difference in my life small or big:

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A gift lies before you,
a sparkling new year,
a realization of the dreams that you hold dear.

Hold out your hand;
don't be afraidto take it,
for the new year is yoursand it will be whatyou make it.

It has not a flawit's whole and it's new.
It's not justanother year,but a new worldfor you

AS ANOTHER YEAR BEGINS,
MAY IT FILL YOUR DAYS WITH PEACE,
HAPPINESS & MAKE YOUR LIFE BRIGHT

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